Disappointment Part III

So, as I keep moving forward in this series of "Disappointment" posts, the title becomes less and less relevant.

A Commitment

Earlier this month I decided that I was going to shut down all my feelings about girls for a time. My rationale for that was that I wanted to defend myself from pursuing a relationship for the sake of a relationship instead of a young woman for her sake. And I didn't really have anything to lose seeing as I wasn't interested in anyone. Notice how I've been using the past tense for this whole intro? Yeah...

Share? Stay? Share? Stay? What's a flying squirrel to do?

I'm thinking very seriously of leaving the fire hall in Sexsmith. Why? And why shouldn't I? My thoughts below...

Outta My Mind

Feelin’ like I got a front row seat to watch everybody be happy

Can't even paint a smile on my face, it’s so hard to not complain

Gotta try not to say

O God, what about me

‘Cause I know that's not the way that I'm supposed to be

Get me outta my mind and into Your heart

It’s not about me, it’s not about me

So I’m gonna start playin’ my part in Your design

Now is the time

Get me outta my mind

Outta my mind

There's a bigger picture on display and it's starting to come in focus

Causing me to see to see the ones in need outside my little world

Gotta try, just to say

O God, what can I do

Doesn't matter what it takes, I wanna lead them all to You

Get me outta my mind and into Your heart

It’s not about me, it’s not about me

So I’m gonna start playin’ my part in Your design

Now is the time

Get me outta my mind

Outta my mind

If anybody asks me what have I been up to

This is what I'm gonna say

I've been spending my time, outta my mind

And I'm really lovin’ livin’ this way

-Outta My Mind, Anthem Lights

Sermonizing - Part II

In the American Civil War, Abraham Lincoln once got caught up in a situation where he wanted to please a politician, so he issued a command to transfer certain regiments. When the secretary of war, Edwin Stanton, received the order, he refused to carry it out. He said that the President was a fool. Lincoln was told what Stanton had said, and he replied, "If Stanton said I'm a fool, then I must be, for he is nearly always right. I'll see for myself." As the two men talked, the President quickly realized that his decision was a serious mistake, and without hesitation he withdrew it.

Whether it's new or not, pain still hurts

Well, another brand new couple hits the streets of PRBI. Normally that wouldn't bother me as much as it is right now. In principle I tend to be a bit of a romantic and get excited when guys step up to the plate, take a risk and begin dating a girl. Especially when my close friends begin dating. But not this time. And it's frustrating me that I am not thrilled for them.